In Case Anyone is Wondering

Things have never gone so well in my entire life. If I could have built this life with my own hands it would be exactly the way it is. No detail changed. I am truly happy.There are moments in each day where I just have to burst into shrieks and wiggles because all of the excitement and happiness wont fit in my body any longer and I have to explode. A huge tidal wave of creativity has swept over me. I am writing and painting and creating in a more serious tone than I ever have. Serious as in I am taking myself seriously for once. I am a talented creator of all things I set my mind to.

I have so much clarity out here, maybe its this thick ocean breeze colliding with thin mountain air, I dont know. I feel no rush, no stress, but a strong sense of importance. Its like I have jumped into the river of life and instead of kicking and screaming, I have taken a deep breath, relaxed and am letting the current take me along effortlessly. But I like where its taking me. Its nice.

Although I hated work at first, its grown on me, and the perks of it are starting to cancel out the bad. I have been hanging with my co workers a lot outside of work and I really like everyone. Especially Blakely who lives down the road from work too. And the boys from Colorado, same sense of humor, its always fun.

Basically if perfection was obtainable, I am there. If it is possible to be truly happy, I am. In retrospect, my decision to move out here seems so strange. How did I stumble upon Seattle, and why, out of the many ideas I have always changing about where I want to go to school or if I want to go school, how did this one become something tangible. I could never explain it in words, but somewhere in there I know exactly how and why, and I am forever grateful that I have the strength to listen to my heart.