Alittle more growing up

I am ready to get this life on the road. Job Job JOB is on the brain. Unfortunately and ironically my personal computer decided it just couldn't hold on any longer. It has gone to its final resting place. Which leaves me without all my music, all the photos that I havent uploaded (luckily that last picture post was pretty extensive), my resume, and various writings that I had started. So job hunting gets one step harder at this point. Of course, just yesterday I had called and made a request to get internet service at the house, all roommates agree that its necessary, but now I have no computer to surf on. I still am going to get it, because I can always use their computers, also it will allow me to have a bill in my name so I can get a drivers license so I can officially be a resident. And I can cancel service at any time with no fees. Also, as soon as I have a stable job with some income coming in, I plan to use some of my savings to get a new laptop. At this day in age its extremely hard to be without a computer and the internet. In a lot of ways it has made people even more lazy than we were already getting, but it is an enormous convenience that I personally do not want to live without. I am proudly part of the spoiled internet generation and I wont go without it.

Thankfully the coffee shop down the street is only $1 for 30 minutes of computer time, and then theres always the 20 minute walk to the library. So for now, I will make due, and keep pushing strongly forward. No one said this would be easy. Well, except for my brain saying "oh yeah, this will be a piece of cake." But I guess I had to be thinking that way in order to actually get out here. As I saw with finding a house, it took much longer than I had anticipated, but the wait was so much more than worth it. Maybe a job will be the same. Maybe all this waiting and procrastinating will pay off. Not procrastinating, because I have sent out resumes. I just think I am looking to hard. I am being too rigid about picking the perfect job. I am trying to control too much, and I need to just relax and loosen up and the job will find me.

I just saw my roommate Nick here at the coffee shop, he gave me a little pep talk concerning the whole job search. Confidence, he said. Employers are lucky to have you inquire about a job. Thats all it takes. Being fearless and confident on the outside, even if your shaking in your boots.
I dont have to be anything but what I want to be here. And I am fearless and confident!